Alexa PenaVega ultimately found purpose in the wake of her late daughter Indy’s stillbirth.
“Two years ago, we lost our daughter at birth. She was adorable, just chunky, beautiful. It was a full-term stillbirth,” PenaVega, 37, recalled on the Thursday, July 30, episode of the “Dear Future Husband” podcast. “Never in your wildest dreams would you ever imagine walking
through that ever, and it’s going to sound crazy, but it was such a gift.”
Alexa and her husband, Big Time Rush singer Carlos PenaVega, announced in 2024 that their fourth child was born sleeping. (Alexa and Carlos, 36, also share sons Ocean, 9, and Kingston, 7, and daughter Rio, 5.)
“Indy’s life is so full. She may be in heaven, but, like, she is so full,” Alexa noted to podcast host Christian Bevere. “I didn’t grow up thinking about death, you know, ‘cause it’s scary. Death has lost its sting. We have felt the valley, and I think we feared the valley so much because everyone told us to fear the valley.”
She continued, “But in the valley with God, there are diamonds. The valley is loaded with rubies and gold and gems and the things that everyone is so afraid to go get, you know, and here we are, like, swimming in luxury in the worst time of our lives because He was just there for us.”
Alexa and Carlos, in particular, found solace in their faith following Indy’s death.
“We lost her on a Saturday morning and Sunday, the next day, my husband’s like, ‘How are you doing?’ [He was] just trying to check in with me and be an amazing husband, but we’re both equally just hurting,” the Spy Kids actress recalled of Carlos’ support. “[He] had his peace immediately. It’s a weird space to be in like, total peace but total pain. I’m like, ‘I really have to go to church.’”
Standing in church one-day postpartum, Alexa held hands with the musician as they hung onto every word of the preacher’s sermon.
“We just begin to just cry uncontrollably uncontrollably. It wasn’t loud,” she recalled on Thursday. “It was like it was just us in our own little world, our hands are raised and we’re worshipping.”
In the months and years since grieving the stillbirth, Alexa and Carlos held onto their relationship even more.
“When her loss happened, it was still a big blow, but [God’s] peace was so evident and so all over our lives, and the way he used her life to ignite our family,” Alexa stated. “I hear about these couples who end up breaking up after the loss of a child and it hurts my heart so much because, for us, it ignited us. It was, like, the fan to the flame that [made us] so much more intentional with each other. Walls were broken.”
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